Set apart…

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, And before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations.”

Jeremiah 1:5

What I love most about Jeremiah’s story is that he was just a kid when God chose to use him. Proof that God can use anyone to do amazing things. Even a kid. A lot of times I question myself, if i am worthy enough to have a God so amazing love me. A sinner. But it makes me love him more when i learn the ways that he loves and sees me. I don’t know if I can speak for any, but when i think of all the things people have said about me, or thought of me, or even things i think of myself, it never ceases to amaze me when i receive messages like this from God. When I was listening to my pastor speak Sunday at service, he spoke about Jeremiah , when God came to him and how he was scared to do what God has called him to do. A lot of the times we forget about our purpose, because we are scared of what people will say or think. We forget that we are set apart for God’s bigger plan. As i sat there listening to the pastor (Roy) saying how we need to just be available. I cried. You see, Jeremiah tried to make a lot of excuses about why he would not be able to go do what God called him to do because he was young, and no one would listen. I thought to myself, I make excuses everyday of my life, when it comes to doing what God has called me to do. Some days it gets so bad that i start thinking that God doesn’t even want me for his purpose anymore. Before i went to service that day, i was already at a low point. I didn’t even want to go to church. I fight spiritual battles everyday. I make excuses everyday. Then right when i get to my lowest point God reminds me, that he has set me apart. That he knew me in my mothers womb. And even though I don’t read that much of the word, when i hit low points, be brings things to my remembrance, things like Jeremiah 29:11 “I know the plans i  have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Or Hebrews 13:5 “I will never leave you or forsake you.” It wasn’t until service on Sunday that i realized how important it is to read the word. That way when you do have those low points, you have something to fall back on. There has been things that God has planted in my heart, that this world can not remove. Not only does he see in me everything i don’t see, he sees me as redeemed and delivered. Hes brought me from the hell that i put myself in, dusted me off and sent me straight back to him. When you try to grasp who God is and all that he is capable of its impossible. Hes so much more than anything you could think up. For me, hes that God that breaks drug addiction, a God that casts out suicidal thoughts. Hes A God of forgiveness, that can look deep down in your heart and see you for everything you are, who you really are. When i picture Jesus looking down on me, and i show him all the things that i am, i can almost feel him looking right past that, smiling down on me saying that i am so much more than just a sinner, but a master piece. God can use anyone, even me. Don’t let anyone, especially you, keep you from knowing what God really thinks of you, or what God really wants from you. It’s like my pastor Roy said, “There is no demon in hell that can keep you from God, only you.” So take it from someone who struggles daily with God’s plans for my life, learn to appreciate the struggle, because its all part of God’s story. But just know, even at your lowest point, he will come just in time. And always remember, “Every word of God is tested: He is a shield to those who take refuge in him.” Proverbs 30:5