For as far back as I remember I believed that the trials that we faced in life were just a product of our current situation. In other words, just bad luck. When we faced bad times or dealt with pain, there would be no other outcome but heartache. So, not only are you carrying the weight of life on your shoulders, you also believe that you will always have to carry that burden alone.
What is the purpose of pain? Does the “world” just hate you more? Truth is, everyone all over the world deals with trials and suffering. The bible says in 1 Peter 5:9 “Stand firm against him (the enemy) and be strong in your faith. Remember that your Christian brothers and sisters all over the world are going through the same kind of suffering you are.” So no, the world does not hate you more. Everyone deals with something. The true test is what you do during your trials. You can let the pain, shame, guilt or sin overcome you or you can seek the Lord in prayer and ask for His strength to overcome. God has taught me two important things in my walk. 1 is I was never capable of carrying the weight of my pain by myself. It was too heavy and eventually the pain started to destroy me from the inside out. And 2 every time I asked the Lord to help to me, He did. The common regret that I always had was waiting till the last second to reach out to Him in the first place. So the best advice I have for you is to pray first about EVERYTHING and wait for God to move. Prayer should always be the 1st thing that comes to mind because pain is a spiritual issue. The bible says in 2 Chronicles 7:14 “If my people who are called by my name would humble themselves and pray and seek MY face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land.” And in this situation, “land” meaning you.
In my personal opinion, pain serves a great purpose. It reveals weakness. It’s almost as if pain reminds you that you’re really not capable of holding it together on your own. One of the most challenging things we will face in our walk is admitting we still need help or that we are weak. But it’s when we are able to recognize our weakness we can go to our source of strength; Jesus.
“Each time He said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work in me.”
2 Corinthians 12:9