His love endures…

“Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good! His faithful love endures forever. Has the LORD redeemed you? Then speak out! Tell the others he has redeemed you from your enemies.”

Psalms 107:1-2

I guess my question to most would be; has God done anything for you? For me, he has moved mountains. My relationship with God is maturing because I now realize that when I first got saved 5 years ago, the world still revolved around me. It was always about what God is going to do for ME. How he is going to change ME. Deliver ME. Free ME. ME ME ME. Now as I am growing in my spirit I learned that it was never about ME. It’s always been about HIM. And how much HE loved me. It was about all the things that HE removed from my life. The very life that HE gave me. I didn’t understand the importance of Him. I just knew He was God. It wasn’t until I knew Him, that I realized how tiny my existence really is. 7.4 billion souls in the world today, and I was going on as though my soul was the only one that mattered. But when I really think back on it now; where would my soul be now if Christ chose not to die for me? How much value would I have? You see, to God we are everything and more, because He created each and everyone for a purpose. But to ourselves, we forget if it wasn’t for Him that we would have no purpose at all. I actually had a conversation with my sister Dora and we talked about how people don’t really know what people deal with spiritually? What they really think, or how close they come to giving up on life all together. People think that depression and suicidal thoughts are just mental diseases, in a sense yes. But spiritually its a stronghold over your mind. For me, I see everything as something that can only be delivered by God himself. Drug addiction, suicidal thoughts, depression, bulimia, anorexia, struggle with body issues, anything that alters the way you think about yourself or others. God created each of us perfectly. Not one a mistake. But we tend to think that we can figure it out by our self, or its not ever really that bad. Or a million other lies we tell our self. The list goes on and on. The funny thing is, people go to rehab a million times and 9-10 go back to the same addiction. They find Christ and all of a sudden they are addiction free. It’s not because of will power, its because of God’s power. Because if you have even the smallest faith that God can and will, he will. Because in our weaknesses we are made strong, only by God. Our testimonies Glorify our Father in heaven. He gives us these great testimonies so that others will know of his greatness. Not ours. If it wasn’t for God alone, I know that I would not be here today sharing this post with you. I would have gave up 1/2 a year ago, when life seemed better without me. When the damage in my heart was too much to bare.When all I could see was my failures. It wasn’t until I laid in bed at 4 in the morning and instead of going thru with dying, I asked God to live. For him to help me. I had enough. I told him that He was the ONLY one who could save me. And I believed it with all my heart because He had been there with me before. He had never left me. I was just looking past him and could only see everything I did to myself. I was believing the enemies lies. Not God’s truth. He showed me that I have a purpose. That I do have value. That I will be redeemed and delivered. And its because of God himself that I am here. Everyday of my life is a testomony of God’s love for me. I will always remember how great and mighty God is. How he moves mountains. 

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