Sometimes we focus so much on what the enemy is doing, it distracts us from what God is doing also. This morning as I was getting ready to start the day, I almost dreaded the thought of facing what was waiting for me. Last night before I went to sleep, I dwelled in an ugly and too familiar place. I sat there and thought about all the ways the enemy has been attacking me. With my family, with my husband, with myself. I prayed, but in the back of my head I was thinking about what they enemy was doing. That feeling of despair was so overwhelming, I had to fall asleep in my closet. Just so that I could be in complete silence and away from any distractions.
And as I woke up this morning with the same feeling of last night still with me. So much so that I couldn’t hear God, but was only able to listen to what the enemy was telling me. When I got to my son’s school and dropped him off, I prayed to myself. “Please Lord let me hear your message, What are you trying to teach me.”
There is this lady, her name is Jessi. Her son is my son’s best friend. She is a believer. She radiates Jesus. I saw her in class with her son Tj, so I dropped Johnpaul off and left as fast as I could. I didn’t want her to see that I was feeling kind of defeated. But all of a sudden I just stopped and it was like God was telling me to seek godly counsel, he was saying to me “you want a message right?”. I almost made it out the building, but instead I turned back and waited for her to come out. Just knowing in my heart that whatever she tells me is what God wanted me to hear.
The message I received from her was to stop thinking so much about the enemy and what he is doing, and start thinking more about God and what he has promised to us.
So I’m letting the holy spirit lead in this situation and just say, that I know that life is overwhelming. I know its easy to take our eyes off of God, but the moment we do chaos happens. We can’t control what happens in our lives. We can’t control circumstance or every situation. But what we can do is trust in the Lord. For his word says in Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose.” Because “The Lord is good, a strong refuge when trouble comes. He is close to those who trust in him.” Nahum 1:7
Don’t take your eyes off of Jesus. God is more powerful than anything we encounter. I pray that God gives you strength to endure and to continue to fight the good fight.
Cynthia M. Benavides 